Saturday, April 21, 2012

Adequate.

The attack is silent, swift, deadly, hidden.  Satan comes not in fire, brimstone, loud noise, or open persecution.  He comes cunningly, sneakily, to her fragile heart, her anxious thoughts.  The tape, on mind numbing, soul crushing repeat:

You have no value.
No one cares about you.
You have nothing to offer.
You're worthless.
No one likes you.
See what she said about that person?  Clearly you will never be as good as them.
Everyone else is so much better than you, what's wrong with you?
You can't control anything.
No one wants to be around you.
Everyone but you has friends.
You are invisible.
You can't do this.
You will fail.
God is disappointed with you.  Who do you think you are to think you can do such great things through Him?  You're clearly not as close with Him as everyone else, you are are
so
inadequate.
You don't belong.

She shrivels, and tries to fight, the constant battle of Satan's lies.  But she spirals downward, as she stops believing in her capability to argue back, as she is cut to the core, with the very words that hurt the most.

She sees hope, shining through the fog, the Father who loves her wholeheartedly, deeply, unconditionally.  The kind words of true friends, the mind tape that should be playing.  And she is angry.  Angry at Satan for trying to destabilize her, to ruin her ministry, for feeding her lies.  She fights, trying to reach home.  She rebukes the lies, crying out for her God.

He reaches out to her every time.  He holds her close.  Christ is victor, Christ is Lord.  See her, love her, reach out to her.  Pray away the demons, see her with His eyes.  She is so adequate.  We are all so much more than adequate.

"For I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.  Your works are wonderful, I know that full well" -Ps. 139:14

Jer. 29:11-15

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